Panicking

So now I’m home in Vermont. It’s kind of funny to think that I was in California, more so Los Angeles and Newport, and I was unable to connect to a computer. But I’ll tell you what, it was definitely relaxing to not have to deal with it (although I was a little out of the social loop when I got home!)

Anyways, I was told today that this week is basically the last week of school for me, being that I graduate next week and have special senior stuff to do or whatever. At first I had that “Yay! Summer vacation!” vibe going on. That changed quickly and drastically. As of today, Monday the 2nd of June, I am not ready to leave this place.

Maybe it’s because my brothers are home. Since they started leaving every year for college, which was four years ago, it’s always been hard on me. They are my best friends so it obviously makes me a little glum when I have to say goodbye. They’ve been home for almost a week now and it’s made me realize how much I love them and my family, and obviously my friends, too! But graduating represents a step in my life; a step that’s taking me closer to a point where I will not be around all of these people that I love. Right now, today, I don’t see this as a positive thing. It actually kind of sucks.

I’ll take a better, more open-minded look on this situation soon and be a little more optimistic about it. It’s just that, presently, I love Stowe so much that I’m afraid of leaving it.